Post by Corvus on Feb 27, 2014 14:41:13 GMT -7
I'm sure that no one wants to hear from me after the incident that transpired this afternoon - really, just a while ago - and I'll try to be brief; if you don't want to read this, or see text from me, I apologize for this as well and please ask you to click the back button. I'm sorry, and I didn't mean to insult or discomfort anyone further by making an apology thread, but I'm supposed to be staff here and just letting that go without making an official apology is not something a staff member should do.
First off all, I apologize to everyone present when I exploded; I should never have let my temper get the best of me, especially over something so trivial and, in fact, unwanted with the outburst. Specifically, Nyanja, Driclone, Ros, Dan, Smiff, Herooftime, Tama, and Ryuujin. More than anything, I apologize to Hero for making the cbox an uncomfortable place to be, and I hope that I have not ruined it permanently. That said, I do not intend to be present in the cbox anymore; if someone asks for me, I will show up, but after what I've done, it is best for everyone if I stay out and stay my tongue. I was hurtful for no good or sane reason, and I do not want to ever make that mistake again, after what it's done to our precious members and - the more I worry about it - our site's reputation.
That said, I would like to beg that my behavior not influence anyone if they decide to leave or stay; this site is an amazing one, and after all the work the admins have put into it, I would hate for my outburst to make anyone feel unwelcome to the point of leaving.
I genuinely hope that my staying here does not bother anyone, and if there is anyone who is afraid I may be biased in the future when grading profiles or doing other mod work, I would like to offer you a chance to put a restraining order of sorts on me by answering this thread. I would not want to upset anyone further by interacting by chance if that makes them uncomfortable. Furthermore, and I know rubbing points on it will not make it better and I don't have enough yet to fairly spread around, but I do have 60+ on my character account and 70+ here. If anyone would like to have monetary compensation for insults suffered, I'd like to offer it with - again - my sincerest apologizes for the incident - all you have to do is ask, and then I'll go back to being quiet for you.
I'm truly, truly sorry for this incident, and while the most right thing to do would probably be to resign as a mod, I still want to be useful and still help the site to succeed however I can. I'm sorry for being, frankly, the hugest bitch to ever crawl forth from the depths of hell, and I don't want the site to lose treasured members because one shitty mod can't keep their temper in check.
I'm sorry, not just to the members of So Long Sentiment that have suffered because of my attitude, but for everyone on the site for being a letdown as a staff member. And I beg you, please continue to support and enjoy this site however you can, but I'll do my best not to make my presence felt where and when it makes people uncomfortable. I wish you all the best, and again, I can not apologize enough for my horrendous behavior.
- Mod Corvus